is this goodbye?

"No Dad, not Goodbye! I hate goodbye! SEE YAH LATER." A a son with such great hopes and dreams of reaching his goals, MiCHAEL was just so annoyed to hearing goodbyes. *allergic?xp* It's quite amazing how this flick, JOHN Q., touched so many aspects in just one situation.

After that Sunday's baseball game, it has been unexpected that the tables have turned against Michael. His hearts stops working in good condition. And if his heart won't be replaced in time, it might be the last of him. This time, would the boy who hated goodbyes be saying goodbye to his mom, dad and dreams to be the ultimate body builder? Is this goodbye?

Of course, as a loving father, JOHN, did actions in order to gain his son's survival. He went to different insurance companies and even loaning agencies *if I'm not mistaken* but they just kept on turning him down. If I'm to be the owner of one of the insurance/loaning agencies, I might just probably do the same. John is just earning enough for his family's needs. How about the business? They are just playing safe, because just like John, they also have needs. Now, less on the insurance/loaning agencies and more to John. It's really hard for the part of John since those are the only hope he could cry for help. And now rejected? What's the worst that is yet to come? See his son gradually losing his life? Watch her wife cry and scream for help as she begs her son to breathe? John's gonna turn lunatic? No way, he won't let that reach reality. And maybe, just maybe, that's why doing inappropriate actions were his only hope for the life he loved so much.

Actually, at that point, I was actually starting to feel pity for John. *i thought they are one of the richies living in US. but i was actually wrong.* I realized how lucky am I to have people to ask for help. *my father, my mother, my aunties, my uncles, so on and so forth.* And also, how much of a big responsibility it is to have a family. Especially, when all you can afford is just your daily needs. I have also come to think how much does a son (or a daughter) means to their parents. How much effort, time and even money would be spent just to see their child alive, hear them talk & listen to them no matter how senseless are they talking about.

In John's mind was: HOSTAGiNG THE HOSPiTAL in exchange for his son's heart; that was his last option. Though he did not want for that to happen, he had no choice. He was truly desperate onto saving his son. So, that's what really happened. He hostages the Emergency Room in a certain hospital and there he learned how hard it is to run a hospital. With that situation on hand, of course, there's got to be a solution! That is when Media People, Police and the Government come on handy. So, why are they there? Let's see. Obviously, media people are there to get an insight of what's happening, to help citizens know what actually with the case. *but..we know what they want, ViEWERS.* Then, next, the Police People. They are there to contain the situation and prevent serious damages to occur. And finally, the Government. Of course, it is the mission to promote their citizen's good quality of life. In this case, they are there to stop the hostaging event and maybe, just maybe, help John wih his dilemma.

You see, the government is not always about politics. Even though Politics play a big role to the government, that is not where their world turns around everytime. They may do some "operations" unknown to the public and they do not stop from that.

Now, it's time we look at the "health issues" on this movie.

First, John's son, Michael gets his life on a 50-50 percentage. It's all about getting a heart donor in time! So, what did John do? Alright, I've already discussed that on my upper paragraphs. But, the story doesn't end on John's situation as a hostager. No, it does not.

On the hospital where John got his hostagees, it featured different situations where help is REALLY needed. Let's take the lover's case. They were shot (or stabbed, i guess). So they needed first aid to help them stop the bleeding. This is where, again, health institutions come to the rescue.

But back to Michael's almost dying situation, I would like to stress out how the Government, in hand with the hospital found a way to another healthy heart that would cause Michael to live for more years. Of course, due to desperation, John found another solution. *it is because his hostage-action did not successfully gave him what he wanted.* He decided to give his heart instead. He wanted to give him his life for the sake of his beloved son. So, with no further a do, John rests in an operating room bed. *is it a bed? i don't actually saw what is it. argh, blame the screen. haha* With a shot gun in his hand, he said his last words, actually, thoise have been John's last words, if a guy from another hospital faxed the hospital where John and Michael is. It could have been. *this is the CLiMAX where everyone's screaming: "John, NO!!!"*

So, let's all thank communication! For if not, John would be a goner and his heart won't go no where since a new heart donor had been found. Now, i would like to ask you: *not that I'm totally a pro for the government but just be an eye opener and see the other side of government* You think, if the government did not do any actions on John's case, would you think that Hospitals are just gonna give away free operations? NO, they won't. It would cost a lot of money. LOTS of money, it tell you.

Now, to end this... *hmm. i actually don't know what to say. Still caught up with John true love for his son.* Ohh! now, I've got it! To kill the suspense of whose heart was transferred to Michael, I would now reveal it. Actually her name is not mentioned. See, she is a girl who had an accidental car crash on a highway. She was found dead but still her vitals are good. Her heart gave way to another chance for Michael to continue his dreams and see another sunshine.


And as for John, well, he was found guilty for his case. Many private and even public organizations helped John to be innocent on his case. But, sad to say, it did not work out good. My reaction to this? A part of me agrees that John should be sentenced because a mistake is still a mistake. Just by doing heroism (to his son, that is) won't erase what he has done. It would still be a mistake that John did. But, of course, a part of me is still saying, PARDON. If only they understood whta John has gone through, maybe they would just give him Pardon. It's the life of his son that they are talking about here!! But still, it's the government's duty to enforce law among his citizens. If John would just be forgiven, it would be unfair for those who are in jail. People would not be afraid of the Laws anymore .*Agh! Forget it. ANyway,they would give us pardon. We are heros.* The government doesn't want that to happen. But don't worry, John will see his family, LATER. ;)

**Don't say goodbye. See you later. ü**

musikaHEARTistahh V.1

/* original art. ü there's more to come. */

thunder - boys like girls. ^^

"your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.

do you know you're unlike any other?

you'll always be my thunder.."

*how sweet is that to hear from your some one??

hmm. ;)

a starry night

"i am yours, you are mine."

*woah. how loyal. ;)

such simple words, but implies so strong message.

frozen clock

/* this is actually me and my dear friend ATTHEMiST's composition. we did it, uhm, last december 2007. */

a frozen clock is what i am yesterday

being unable to let go of my past

but today, i came to realize

that the past that haunts me

has no connection to the future

that i am going be have.

life goes on

it's a fact and you can't go back

but why is it hard to let go?

and now, no matter how hard

i try to reminisce,

you woouldn't be here with me again.

i'll just stand here,

waiting for your impossible return.

even though that will only happen in my dreams.

erasing your memories so hard,

it's like killing myself inside.

because the more i try, the more pain i cry.

our happy memories together

would just be an illusion like a star in a morning sky.

my dreams shattered,

my life fell out of place, when you left,

now lost, drenched in pain,

alone in the dark

and floating in an empty space.

that's what i feel.

i should have known, to love you was a mistake.

a fool is what i am now,

thinking that we could be happy together.

all this time, i am pretending to feel your love that wasn't really there.

you and me, happy?

it was a childish fantasy.

being with you as i thought was the best,

the best thing that happened to me.

and yet, i was just dreaming

beacause you'll never be mine.

i should have woke up a long time ago.

i should have came back to reality earlier,.

i wisjh i could turn back time.

oh! i'm such a fool.

now i'm hurting myself with all the memories that died.

if only i could bury those memories and move on...